how if oneday you want other's husband/wife or fiance to be yours only?

i "almost" fall in this trap of love. i dreamt of him, saying to left his wife so that he can be with me. i "almost" resign coz i couldnt bear this ache seeing him everyday at office. i "almost" desperate wanting to get laid with him, or at least kiss him.

well.. however.. our body can be so close, or even "connected", since we often ride motorcycle together to work. but we both know there is a clear and thick line not to be crossed.

i know ur religion forbids a divorce. so, may i wish ur wife died?